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As the beam approached I felt a surprise of recognition. I felt "Oh ya, I am you and you are me!! I REMEMBER!"  At the same time I was completely infused with ALL THE LOVE THERE IS IN THE UNIVERSE. I can not fully describe in words the full expanse of the feeling. I heard a voice with my physical ears say “EVERYTHING WILL BE ALL RIGHT.” From inside my head I heard a personal message. Every cell in my body responded to the absolute LOVE. I felt each and every cell awaken and I became surprisingly aware that each cell had a consciousness. I glanced down to my hands on the steering wheel and I saw my left hand and forearm luminescent with a bluish-white light from the inside out.

I experienced the event from several perspectives. I later came to understand that we all have these other “bodies” (Physical, Mental, Emotional, and Spiritual) but at the time I only knew I was seeing everything happen from multiple locations or perspectives. I already mentioned my intellect saw from the passenger seat. My body of course could see with my physical eyes. My emotion or “heart” seemed to be experiencing things from the back seat.

My soul was drawn up out through my chest and drawn up the beam as I reached the top of the beam I rippled out in concentric circles and I BECAME all the souls on the planet then became aware that I AM all the trees and ALL the grass and all the Rocks and all EVERYTHING in the physical world this planet and on out into the universe, then I was aware if having ALL KNOWLEDGE and the feeling was so full and complete. I am beyond time and outside of space.

This concept is a tough one to describe using words relating to physical reality because the ultimate reality is without limitations, locatability and using comparison is like talking in gibberish. So using my feeble vocabulary, my sense of “I am” was really really BIG.( I laugh now at the silliness of that sentence.) I felt a stream of energy going into my physical brain like a download but I couldn’t access it.

At the level of God or oneness that I was I could see and know that not only that everything in existance is made by God, it is made of God and every particle of mass, (including particles we don't yet have a way to perceive in the physical world) radiate with the "light of God Love." Even those perceived as dark are made wholely of particles of light.  God's Love is for every one and everything because it is all God anyway.

I came back to being myself. From the perspective of the back seat I had the raw guttural response of  “COOOOOL!!!!!!!!!!” Still flooded with LOVE and the feeling of the fullness of the knowledge though not retaining the knowledge itself because of my limited brain capacity, I said out loud in the car “that just happened” kind of like to check myself that it really did happen.

Then becuase the Barnes & Noble signe was lit up with a heavenly golden light I knew God was suggesting that I go to Barnes & Noble. I said out loud to myself "If God wants me to go to Barnes & Noble I guess I'll go" I turned the wheel just in time to take the secondary exit to South Coast Metro Barnes & Noble.

Born and raised in Alliance, Ohio to a large Italian/Irish Catholic Family. The 5th of 8 children. I went to Catholic Grade School and High School.

My first memory is of my Paternal Grandfather holding me in his arms. I was an infant and the scene before me of calm water, a shore line and a line of trees, rocked gently. I didn't have language in this memory but I could feel his love enveloping me.

I remember being in church around 6 years old and imagining God would shine a ray of light down on me. Around that time the nuns asked me if I wanted to be a nun. I remember I had just one question. "that means no boys, right?" "Correct" was the reply. At 6, I didn't know much about the world but I was certain that missing out on boys was not the way for me.

I remembered on my last day of grade school I walked across the street to the empty playground and climbed to the top of the monkey bars and contemplated the future and felt my consciousness expand out in every direction and time. It was like I could see my future self looking back in time towards that moment.